Anti-drug people beware. I'm about to post something that's outright illegal and not recommended for you to do.

I'm a heavy drug user. Have been since high school, still am. I take Adderall 60 MG every morning (snorted), goto sleep with 3 pills of 15 MG Ambien (snorted). That's how I wake up and goto sleep.

I used to love weed. Now, I stopped smoking. For job reasons, not getting class work done, etc.

Instead, I snort about 3Gs of cocaine everyday now, a nearly a $100 a day habit. I basically make bulk buys in the amount of 50-100 Gs, 85% Columbian pure coca ($2-3K). I sell half of my purchases and get a 2-3x return on my money.

I also take painkillers (Oxycotin, Hydrocodone, Percocet, Codeine, Vicodin) on a daily basis. I feel like a junkie sometimes, but life has been good.

I've been to rehab for cocaine 3 times. I haven't learned shit at them, I just goto them to make society happy.

I've been busted for possession a few times. Nearly got in trouble with Feds a while ago (ask FreePlay if you don't believe me), but have since gone under the radar. Pulled out of jail, done community service, blah, blah.

I still maintain straight As at UVA. Drugs have been the reason for my success in school, in making money, and enjoying life in general.

I stopped drinking alcohol after I totalled a new M3 last year, and made some poor decisions in life.

I got addicted to painkillers after I got my wisdom teeth removed. A week without them gives me a terrible crash.

Case in point, my life has been golden since I've pushed and used drugs. Alcohol and weed ruined me life. I never got anything done when under the influence of both.

Recently, I've debating my use of drugs. I'm destroying my body, and I know it. I workout a crapload everyday, but I lack in sleep. I've been awake for 96 hours at a time sometimes. Not good for you. I've been trying to stop using, but I can't. Rehab is worthless, most my girlfriends tend to also do some sort of drugs/drink, and I'm in too deep.

Nobody thinks I use anymore. I've gone completely under the radar, and even at parties, I'm never the one offering goods.

I'm making this post because I want your suggestions. Would you rather live a wonderful life, but die 20 years younger, or live a halfass life, and live for your full potential?

It's tough for me, and I don't know what to do.

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