dude you keep bringing up the point that if he never did drugs blah blah blah none of this would have ever happend. well dude no offence but thats not happening. whats done is done. the road to recovery is not an easy one. i know this. not because i did drugs but because someone very close to me did very heavy drugs (heroin crack, weed, LSD, the works) and i witnessed them go through recovery then fail. and fail and now finally they can be a part of my life because they are clean now. dude whatever you decide to do i want you to know that we are all gonna be here so if you need support well give it to you. i recommend going to an outpatient program and try once again to get nack on your feet. and i recommend going skydiving.... if that doesnt give you a rush nothing will.

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All I can say is, good luck to you. I have ADD and was perscribed ritalan as a child. When I was about 13, I desided that I didn't want to take it anymore because I knew I was addicted. When I got off it, everything crashed. My grades fell (I couldn't pay attention), and everything seemed doomed. What pulled me through were my friends. It took a few years, but I got through and I feel I am a better person because of it. I still have ADD, but I have learned to deal with that mentaly without the help of drugs. I am finally at peace with myself, thanks to everyone that helped me.

I guess what I'm saying is that no matter what you do with your life, there are people who care about you, and we are there to help you through life. You are a brilliant person, and I highly respect you. I'd hate to log in one day and see "Robert A. thrown in jail for drugs (or worse, dead)" on the homepage. You deserve better then that. No matter your choice, I wish you luck, and just keep in mind that there are people out there who'll stand by you.

P.S. Rehab sucks, I'll agree with you there.

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i use vicodin and Tylenol 3 both with codine in them but i have them legaly (kidney stones) but i take them when im not supposed to tho

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I hope you make the right decision Robert, I love you. (in a non-gay way.)

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It's great to hear you're thinking about choices, bro. I know we've talked alot about that sorta' stuff and I know what it's like.

I self-harmed as a kid, because of what went on in my life back then. I suppose it was that which got the ball rolling. People started taking the piss because of what I was doing to myself. They all said I was attention seeking, a gay, an Emo.
After that I started seeking refuge and control in other forms, became an alcaholic, a smoker and I frequently did herb.
Back in high school I was on the Junk, physically and mentally addicted. It was expensive, risky, painful, and it got really disastrous. I severed an artery once, and had to have an operation.

Since then, I've drunk less, given up smoking and Junk (hardest thing in my life; Rehab did help, but only because they had a legal alternative drug), do almost no herb, but I am on the PC & Coke (I was doing them both anyway, so don't feel bad). I'm a grown man, and I know enough to say with no regrets that I'm proud of how far I've come, and how little distance I need to go in order to relieve myself.

Contrary to yourself, drugs and shit didn't help me at school or at work, but they didn't make it worse. I always regret starting.

Bro, if you need anything, you can catch me here or on MSN. You're not alone in this; it's tough, but should you be determined enough, you can pull through!

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In your case what I would do is if you do make so much money off of sellin it I would probably keep selling it for the part of doing them I wouldnt do them in the first place they screw you up real bad.

I would go little by little and do less drugs everyday so u dont go crazy becuz some people when they try to stop they do crazy stuff and sometimes die.

but were all here to support u, try football or basketball it would keep you busy. after like a yr when u dont do so much try keeping it all away from you and not do it any more.

Edit:Rehab is a load of shit they dont do anything just try doing it ur self n enjoy life in other matters that dont include drugs.

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So...I'm just wondering, did you ever get through this? Are you off drugs now?

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damn, i never saw this.
kinda funny, cause i feel like i could be in this same situation, except im too cheap to pay for drugs and to scared to ask for some .

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lol u tak him 2 da bar|?

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